学生读书笔记:颜子淇《罪与罚》

中英文/图:颜子淇

《罪与罚》读书笔记

颜子淇 / 幸福学堂高二

首先,我并没有读完整本小说。但是我会继续阅读完这本小说,原因非常的简单:我实在是太喜欢这部小说了。

在阅读这部小说的过程中,这感觉同我阅读尼采的《敌基督者》时的感觉类似,但终究那不是本小说。我认为如果要以阅读时的感受进行比较的话,以英国女作家维多利亚希斯洛普的《岛》来进行比较应该更加的合理。《罪与罚》在描述一个贫困大学生的 故事,《岛》则是在描述二战时期的麻风岛的故事。两本小说给人的感觉都比较压抑,语言简洁,使整部小说有一种令人感到忧郁的宁静。但是我个人认为这两本小说的不同在于他们的深度。如果用歌曲来比喻的话,《岛》更像是一首钢琴作和弦的现代流行乐。编曲就是那个套路,什么时候高潮什么时候停顿,好听,但是内容还不够厚实。《罪与罚》则更像是马勒的交响曲,低沉的大提琴谱写出生与死的基调,再用小提琴、以及圆号等乐器在黑暗的基调中点缀出希望的光芒,但是过了不久又暗淡下去….我并不是在故作高雅,我很反感那样的东西。我只是道出我的心声。当我边听着音乐边看书的时候,我感觉手里的书和耳朵里的音符是相呼应的,是共通的。

回到书中,在第一卷第二章里,男主拉斯柯尼科夫进到酒馆里之后,马美拉多夫开始了引起我思考整整两天的独白。尤其是那一句:“他(上帝)要饶恕一切好人和坏人。”这句话让我开始了思考。如果好人和坏人都要被饶恕,那么为什么要做一个好人?我们考大学的意义是什么,我们宽容别人的意义是什么?为什么会有“道德”这样的词眼?我们所认为的道德难道真的是神所认为的道德吗?神有道德吗?过了不久,我在马可奥勒留给我了一些启发。马可奥勒留是斯多葛学派的代表之一,在《沉思录》中,马可奥勒留多次提到了一个人的内外神,他认为,外神(宙斯)把一部分神性(马可奥勒留认为是理性)注入到了人的身体里,我们即有了“内神”。我个人十分赞同这个观点,但我认为“内神”不完全是理性,还有“良知“。””这也就是为什么我们会有“道德”,当我们在街上看到一个人在殴打一个乞丐的时候,我们的内心会感到同情和愤怒,换言之,心里会一酸。包括大部分的人们在街上看到流浪狗的时候,会有“施舍”。我认为这也是内神的一部分,即良知,理性让我们看清楚了方向,良知给予了我们做事为人的标准,即为“道德”。

再把目光集中在第一卷第七章。当拉斯柯尼科夫准备去谋杀老太婆的这个事件,我自己在阅读这一段的时候感觉很舒服。这种舒服不像是在阅读《哈利波特》或者其他小说的舒服,而是因为作者的描写而感到有一种读的痛快的感受。先前我提到过,《岛》和《罪与罚》的区别,《罪与罚》中的文字会让读者能够更深入的思考,不管是对此小说的桥段感兴趣的读者,或是对此小说所想表达的思想感兴趣的读者。他们都能在阅读这本小说的时候找到一种归属感。

在谋杀老太婆的这一事件中,男主的内心戏是非常有亮点的地方,作者的描写并不是一条路走到黑。很多的作家在描写人物内心戏的时候会写的非常的单一,例如这个人物此刻是开心的,这个人物此刻是悲伤的……而在本书作者的描写中,男主心中人性的博弈被描写出来了。尽管他大胆地做出这个决定并且有了周密的计划,但是在他的内心中还是相当的纠结。人们经常会在第一天做出一个他们认为非常可靠而且可行性很强的决定,但是可能在第二天醒来之后又会改变主意。就我自己来说,我有时会答应我父亲明天去打球,但是当我第二天早上醒来之后,我又觉得自己的身体有千斤重,在此类的情况下我还坚持去打球的例子屈指可数。回到小说,我认为男主谋杀的动机有一些令我费解,因为男主在别的地方听到了路人的对话,其中一个路人提出了杀掉老太婆的想法,因为老太婆拥有很多的财富,他们认为老太婆没有一点社会责任感,她能够用她的财富使更多的人走上正道。并且认为以老太婆的命来换取更多人的美好生活是值得的。当我读到这里我的脑海中想到了“劫富济贫”。但是大多数这样的情况之下杀人也不是首选。然而这帮人的谈话就决定了老太婆最终的命运。生命是一样十分神奇的东西,当人们处于有权势或者底层的位置的时候,常常会自己决定很多的事情,独裁者为了巩固自己的政权经常会指定一些危害性命的条约,其中希特勒屠杀犹太人是个比较有代表性的例子。当一个人有了权势,加上身边人的吹捧,通常会埋没他们内心的“内神”,也就是“理智”。他们认为自己有权力决定其他人的命运和生死。当一个人,或是一个群体,如同小说中的人们一样,走投无路,他们会觉得为什么这些生活富足的人们不来帮助他们这个群体,也就导致了类似于小说中的此类案例的发生。我个人认为我们是没有任何权利去决定别人要如何度过他们的生命的。我认为这些都是上帝的决定,其他人之所以有钱一定有他们的过人之处,他们怎样处置他们的财富是他们自己的事,而且如果自己的生活不济,就应该用自己的双手去开拓,以这些没有社会责任感的人们作为警醒自己的例子,提醒自己如果有了财富应该如何处置。而且一定是有钱才能过上好日子吗?我认为如果一个人以挣大钱为目标,他会比其他以做自己感兴趣的项目为目标的人挣钱更慢,且在实现目标之后会陷入迷茫,因为他缺失了人生的目标。

《罪与罚》这本书带给我了很多东西,对我而言,它脱离了“书”本身,而变成了让我自我反思,思考生命意义的一个媒介。我认为这是这本书给我带来的最大的收获,我现在时常会盯着我的鼠标垫和墙上的海报思考它们存在的意义是什么以及我怎样实现我存在的价值。我认为这是阅读这本书给我带来的最大的收获。


Book review–Crime and punishment

Written by:Johnny Yan

Grade 11th

Ⅰ.Book information:

Title:Crime and punishment

Author:[Russian] Fyodor Dostoevsky

Personal impression:

First of all, I did not read the whole novel. But it is clear that I will finish this novel in the future because this novel became my favorite reading material currently.

In the course of reading this novel, this writing reminds me another book which has a huge impact on me — Antichrist by German writer Nitzsch. However, it is not a novel. In my point of view, this novel will be more reasonable to be compared with Island, which was written by British writer Heath Victoria. Crime and punishment had narrated a story of a poverty collage student, Island had narrated a story of the Isle of leprosy in the period of World War II. Two novels had formed an atmosphere of depression, terse language, and the whole book has a kind of melancholy tranquility. But in my point if view, the difference between those two works are the depth came through lines. Furthermore, it is more noticeable to metaphor them as different genres of music. Island presents it self as a pop music. Generally the same arrangement if people compare it with other pop songs, pleasant to listen to, but not deep enough to make readers meditate after they finish their reading process. In contrast, Crime and punishment turned into a symphony from Gustav Mahler: A deep distant voice of cellos composed the keynote of life and death, then, violins and horns embellishments a slice flickering hope in the darkness. I’m not pretend myself as an elegant person, me personally have a strong aversion to such people. I merely said my thoughts. When I was listening symphony as I was reading this book, I felt words on the paper and those music notes are echoed and common.

Back to the book, in the second chapter of first volume , when Rascoe Nikov went to that pub, Ma Melato begun a monologue which influence me to think deeply for two days, especially “ He(God) will forgive all the kind and evil.” This line brought me into moral question: if all of those kind and evil are able to be forgive, why should I be a ‘ individual who brings positive impact to others?’ What is the purpose to be tolerate? What essentially dose “moral” means? Is the morality of human really presented the moral of God? Is God moral?

Soon, I started searching for clues, I found a work which written by an emperor of ancient Rome Marco Aurelius this work is called Meditation. Marco was one of the representatives of the Stoics. In meditation, he mentioned repeatedly about a human’s internal and external gods. He thought the external God(Zeus), which could be understand as a force from outside, had left  some of the divinity (Marco considered it as rationality.) into human body, then people are be able to have a “inner God”. I personally agree with this view, however, I also thought that the “inner God” is not entirely rationality. In my point of view, in addition to rationality, “conscience” is also a significant part of “inner God”. “conscience” is the basic of “morality”, this standpoint has been proposed by an ancient Chinese saint called Wang Yangming in 15th century. Morality is the reason why people will feel anger and compassion if they saw a person were attacking a homeless man. In my opinion, when “conscience” gave us a standard as a human being, and on the other hand,“rationality” gave us a guide of our directions(were are people heading to).

Let’s focus on first volume chapter 7. When Rascoe Nikov was going to murder the old woman–which she is the landlord of Rascoe Nikov–the paragraph of the writing technique that how dose Dostoevsky portray the inner moral struggle of him. It is a technique of observation and self-contemplation. When an author is writing a narrative novel approximate to Crime and punishment , few of people could be able to makes readers felt the same way how dose that character was feeling. Further more, most of people degenerated their sensitivity in modern society, it is very easy for people to forget things are actually significant in their life.,their imagination was worn down. Back to the book, when I was reading this paragraph, I felt a joyful, it is a joy of delighted by the fluency of this paragraph. Unlike the experience of Harry Potter’s reading experience, Crime and punishment is be able to provide me a immersion reading experience, just like a fish jumped into the ocean. More than this, I could not even remember that I was reading a novel.

Now I want to talk about the motivation of this murder. The reason why is when Rascoe Nikov was hearing a conversation of people with different identities, one of them mentioned the idea of murder this old lady, because her own lots of wealth(compare to them). They thought she has no social responsibility, because she could afford massive of young people to get a better education. There is an old Chinese saying : “Rob the rich and assist the poor”.

Then, this is a discuss of humanity. This conversation indirectly end the old woman’s life. Such a interest thing–humanity. When a human being owns those powers that most of people don’t have, or they had no power to decide their faith, in other words, people usually over thinking they were be in a certain condition: on the top(owns powers that most people don’t have),or in the bottom of the society(has no power). For example, the Jewish Massacre by Nazis. It is extremely dreadful when a person contained too much power. It makes them in a corner of self cognition. From another perspective, it is the same when a group of people who lives in the bottom society trying to fight for their right. It cause the case of murder in this novel, they considered them self as a group should be relief by the others.

Overall, the most precious thing that I’ve searched during the time I was reading this novel is to recognition the meaning of “Book” it self, “book” now becoming a medium for me to self-examination and meditation. After this winter vacation, I frequently put my self i the topic of “Who I am”, and what is my value to being a part of seven billion people in this world. To be able to observing my self , that is what I have learned from this book.

科学展

4月13日,小学部科学展圆满结束。

在这次科学展的成果里,什么会影响蚕的生长?磁铁的力量有多大?手电筒是怎么发电的?热水和冰水哪个更容易结冰?什么食物最解辣?风是怎么发电的……孩子们根据各自提出的问题,进行了很多次实验来寻找答案;在这个过程中,老师是引导者和陪伴者,在关键的问题上指引方向,在多次实验无果的情况下给与鼓励和陪伴。

前进·幸福学堂每年的课程里有各种与文化、与课程相关的活动,有八个中西文化的节日活动、有趣味运动会、诗歌会、学期内游学、期末汇演……这些活动在每一个学期,都将会给孩子们留下幸福的回忆,最终成为孩子一生难忘的知识和能力。

有位智者说过,当你忘记了学校所学的知识,剩下的才是属于你的知识。我相信科学展这样的活动会给学生留下如此深刻的知识。

—— 颜群宇(前进·幸福学堂校长)

暑期游学和夏令营活动安排

游学之一土耳其

Istanbul, the Bridge Between Europe and Asia

伊斯坦布尔,欧亚大陆的纽带

首次面向成人的游学

年龄18至60岁

每一位对旅行充满期待和想象的冒险者

2018年6月22日 — 29日


游学之二法国
Discover FranceThrough 3 cities and With a Local

和法国本地人穿过三个城市,发现法国

12岁至16岁青少年

20天法国行(12个学生)

家长10天法国行

(安纳西+巴黎,7-10个父母)

家长和孩子都可参加这次为期十天的旅行

只是会分开进行不同的活动

2018年7月20 — 8月10日


游学之三英国
English studies camp in England英国英语学习夏令营

在英国小镇家庭度过两周时间

参加当地学校国际小组的英语课程

招募对象:11至16岁青少年

(15人成团,最多20人)

2018年8月2日 — 16日


学堂英文夏令营
Summer English Camp 2018英文夏令营

在英语环境中学习两周

你的英语会突飞猛进

招募对象:4年级 — 8年级

勇于用英文表达者

2018年7月9日 — 20日


阳朔攀岩夏令营

Summer Climbing Camp 2018

阳朔攀岩夏令营

和外教一起到景色绝佳的户外体验攀岩运动

招募对象:10–18岁青少年,18人/团

2018年7月22日 — 31日


How to sign up / 报名方式

Contact / 联系人: Lady. Du / 杜老师

Phone  / 电话: 13985165847

李慧妍:伟大的工程总有先驱者,在我心里,幸福学堂便是这样的存在

中英文/图:李慧妍

慧妍与幸福学堂的交错是在她初中毕业时,她困惑于学业的发展方向。爱她的母亲也纠结于被迫顺应应试教育还是选择符合孩子心理健康的教育方式。虽然,慧妍出国求学经历各种生活、学习的波折,如今回望,她还是庆幸自己做出了明智的选择。

——前进·幸福学堂 颜群宇(校长)


关于成长
初到美国,我对这个国家怀着一种美好的向往,一切都是令人憧憬的。在2015年底之前,我的生活是数学卷子、理化公式、英语外教、站在楼道里傻笑,以及《萌芽》杂志。我眼界里的大风浪也莫过于一次月考出了全班前20。然而,从我下飞机的第一刻起直至现在,我就在不断离那个稚嫩的自己越来越远……

Everything was dreamy and wonderful when I first stepped on the land of America. Before the end of 2015, my life was composed with math quizzes, physics formulas, English classes with a Canadian teacher, bursting laughter along the hallway, and weekly published magazines. The catastrophe of my life was merely dropping out of the top 20 of my class. However, by the moment I stepped out of the airplane that brought me to America, I soon grew at a extraordinary pace……


关于为人处事
不是在哪里都会有志同道合的朋友。但是找到这些人需要耐心和勇气。虽说志不同道不合者不相为谋,但无可厚非的是这些人仍然组成了你每天的生活以及你所处的环境。当你无法立即作出改变时,也只得接受。但我一直认为,接受不代表认可,亦不代表妥协,只是一种让自己保持好心情的手段。大多数人前进的动力莫过于对当下状态的不满,所以在明哲保身之际,也应明了自己的向往以及打算。通过时间及努力,总会高山流水遇知音。

Soulmates and buddies exist wherever you go. However you need to devote effort, time, and bravery when seeking for them. People say you can just step away when facing people you do not like, but on the other hand these people somehow will still make up a part your everyday routine. And someday you will have to learn to accept their accompany. In my opinion, adapting means neither approving, nor compromising. It is simply a way to keep yourself happy. Most people’s motivation comes from the dissatisfaction of the current situation. Therefore, while trying not to be involved in too much drama, we need to understand our goals and expectations for ourselves. Through the assistance of time, people will eventually have a acquaintance with people that will become their life long friends.


关于为人处事
清高一些说,书中自有颜如玉和欢黄金屋。现实一点的说,读书是为了让自己有更多选择的权利,以及追逐自己想要的东西的权利。年少时我曾对金钱嗤之以鼻,赌誓自己要成为三毛一样的流浪作家,超脱于凡俗之外。但现在我也已成年,了觉金钱虽身外之物,但毕竟经济基础决定上层建筑,也是不可或缺的。而学习最直接的效益就是有能力获得更多的金钱。但金钱不是学习所能带来的全部。一日我在浏览知乎问答时瞅见这样一个回答:

我一面悄悄百度了踌躇而雁行的典故,一面为自己的文学素养自惭形秽了一会儿。学识的积累让自己让自己有更多选择的权利,也让自己与更优秀的人产生共鸣。学习和进步的动力最终应该源于“想要”,而不是“应该”。

An eloquent way of explaining why people learn is to say people become a better self  with far different breadth of vision through the nurture of books and knowledge. When you put it plain and realistic, it is to gain the right of having options and the ability to pursue a life within one’s desire. When I was younger I looked down upon any pursue of money. I promised myself to become a writer who wanders around the world, and live above and beyond the shallowness of the material world. However as I grew out of my dreamy bubbles, I understood that although money does define who you are, it is still essential to people’s life. And knowledge is the direct method of acquiring money. However, money is not the only thing people gain from knowledge. On day when I was browsing through Zhihu (an app similar to Quora), I saw a post like this: (pic). While I quickly googled the literary allusion from the post, I felt embarrassed for my lack of literature attainment. Knowledge not only gives you the right to choose from more options in life, but also brings you closer to people that are outstanding and successful. Our motivation of progression should be originating from “I want to” rather than “I need to”.


关于态度
时至今日仍然记得,当年中考前,压力大到哭鼻子被幸福学堂颜老师笑的场景。可以说,在经历了更大的苦难之后,之前的的苦难就不值一提了。有时候我们没有能力改变自己的处境,但我们总是能够改变我们的态度。我认为适当宣泄难过的情绪是非常健康的,人也是被允许有低谷的,但唯独不能一蹶不振。希望总是在的,即便隐没于狂风暴雨之后。有人跟我说:世界上没有任何一种苦难是为你天造地设的。未来也总是充满了更多美好的可能性。梅花香自苦寒来,训练自己拥有一颗坚韧的心能让看似坎坷的路变得平坦许多。

Mr. Yan still teases me with the one time when he caught me crying for the up coming finals till today. And it it true to say after you got shot by a gun, you won’t even notice when somebody cut you with a knife. Sometimes we cannot force the environment to change, but we ca always work with our own perspectives and attitudes. It is okay to feel hurt and cry about it, and it is okay to have days that aren’t so bright, but it is important to never give up trying. There is always hope, even if the storm roars now. Someone once told me that there is no suffering designed just for you. And there so many amazing possibilities await. When a heart is trained to toughen up, the hardship weakens without notice.


关于幸福学堂
与幸福学堂的相遇是在2016年。学堂的课堂课外,总有一些别出心裁的设计和体验,总在孜孜不倦探索着教育应该有的样子。大概每项伟大的工程总有那么一些先驱者,在我心里,幸福学堂便是那样一个存在。

My first acquaintance with 幸福学堂 happened because of an English course, but I truly got to know it during the summer of 2016. Although it might seem short, I learned a lot from the faculty and students there. There is ingenuity and thoughtfulness within and outside of each course of 幸福学堂. Their exploration of the true essence of learning and education continues till today. Perhaps there are always pioneers for great projects, and I believe that is what 幸福学堂 is.

 

【 前进·幸福学堂 】 毕业生专栏 — 陈姚竹:悠闲的贵阳人与匆忙的马来留学生

文/图:陈姚竹 | 翻译:陈姚竹

我很爱玩,不过我宁愿把人生黄金时段的玩乐时间,用来造就未来非凡的我。幸福学堂开启了我人生中的很多新起点,如果4年前的我遇到现在的自己,一定一定非常羡慕现在这个认真并且努力的我。
我是陈姚竹,1998年出生于贵州省贵阳市清镇市医院。

从出生那一刻起,我就成为一个大家族第四代成员中最大的孩子。

爸爸是仡佬族,虽然我的中考获得了少数民族加分,但还是小小的失利了——我没办法就读最喜欢的高中。

那段时间,自信灰飞烟灭,每天用运动来宣泄内心对自己的愤怒,并差一点放弃自己。

高一的寒假,我成为幸福学堂(现前进·幸福学堂)“元老级”的学生。最初的学堂只有我一个女孩,不过这并不影响我被弟弟们(比我年纪小的男同学)宠得不行,我很爱他们。

在学堂,我的阅读量和英语口语开始无限提升,这不但改变了我的性格——变得更加自信和开朗,还成就了在大学里对外国同学侃侃而谈的我。

我很荣幸成为学堂第一个毕业生,现如今就读于马来西亚林国荣创意科技大学(LIMKOKWING UNIVERSITY OF CREATIVE TECHNOLOGY)创意多媒体本科学士学位。

在大学,我开始体验住校生活,自学烘焙并分享成果,同时继续努力提高自己的英语水平。

我觉得有必要要解释一下我的专业,否则可能会有人会误解我学的是传媒,其实我学的是设计。创意多媒体是与游戏设计、3D设计等挂钩的新兴科技学科。更通俗易懂的说,我们的设计作品,大家可以从电子设备及其杂志等等媒介看到。这个专业很适合我也很挑战我——发散性的思维和头脑风暴让系主任对我的印象极为深刻,进专业第一天他记住了我“拗口”的中文名;挑战是因为我的绘画基础有些差(对,你们从我这篇专栏的摄影作品就看得出来),再加上设计类专业需要消耗大量时间和精力去做一个作品,所以这个专业的女孩子在学到一半就会选择转系或者转专业,所以这个专业的女生……比我在幸福学堂的时候好一点。

我现在的生活就是——上学、健身,对着电脑一坐就是6个小时,偶尔逛街。我很爱玩,不过我宁愿把人生黄金时段的玩乐时间,用来造就未来非凡的我。

我在贵阳已经生活了20年。

我最痴迷贵阳的夏天。对于一个热爱运动皮肤黑黑的女孩来说,贵阳的夏天便是我自带空调的大型体育馆。除了气候,我常常向马来人炫耀贵阳夏天的傍晚——是的,贵阳的夜生活从傍晚开始。

马来西亚是一个热带国家,大多数人信仰伊斯兰教,80%的道路为高速公路。

我就读大学的地理位置,是距离马来西亚首都吉隆坡半小时车程的雪兰莪州赛博城(Cyberjaya),一座才开发十年不到的新城(和贵阳的金阳新区差不多,不过没有那么繁华)。由于没有公交车,所以我们出行几乎就靠Uber。

我在国内和国外的生活就是,悠闲的贵阳人与匆忙的马来留学生。

我从小就非常急性子却很谨慎,活蹦乱跳又听话;热爱家庭,对朋友“侠肝义胆”并百分百的信任,所以吃过很多亏。不过没关系,幸福学堂开启了我人生中的很多新起点,我依然相信这是个美好世界。

如果4年前的我遇到现在的自己,一定一定非常羡慕现在这个认真并且努力的我。


I am Chen Yao Zhu
I am Chen Yao Zhu, I was born at 2: 00 p.m. on December 23rd 1998 at Qingzhen Hospital in Guiyang City, Guizhou Province. From that moment on, I became the oldest child of 4th generations in a big family. Because my father was a minority, I was honored to become the Gelao people in middle school. Love family, and friends can be described as “chivalrous,” 100% trust in people, but because of this I have suffered a lot of losses now. But it doesn’t matter, I still believe that the world is still beautiful, I have lived in Guiyang for 20 years. My favorite summer in Guiyang, for a love of sports dark skin for me, Guiyang summer is my own air-conditioned large gymnasium.It will always show off to the outsiders the evening of Guiyang’s summer – the night life begins.

The small defeat in the middle school made me unable to report to my favorite high school. During that time, my confidence and spirit were lost, and I almost gave up on myself. I became exposed to street culture. (skateboarding, I use extreme sports to vent my anger. During my winter vacation in my freshman year, I became a “senior” student in Xinfuxuetang school, and I was honored to be the first student to graduate from school. My reading and my spoken English began to improve infinitely, which made me become a good talker about books and my foreign classmates in college. The biggest change was my personality-becoming confident. I began to experience living in school, I began to bake by myself, to share the results with everyone, and I began to try to improve my English. I opened a lot of the beginning of my life in the school. I was the only girl in the school, but I was spoiled by the brothers in the school, I love them very much.

As we all know, Malaysia is a tropical country and has been colonized by Britain. Most Malays are Islamic on 80% of the roads for highways, and buses will only be many in Kuala Lumpur. We travel almost by Uber. I’m located in Cyberjaya, Selangor, Malaysia, a new city that has been developed for less than a decade (similar to the new district in Jinyang, Malaysia). But it’s not that busy. It’s half an hour’s drive to the capital, Kuala Lumpur. Now I’m studying at LIMKOKWING UNIVERSITY o, Lin Kwok wing university of creative science and technology, Malaysia F CREATIVE TECHNOLOGY’s Bachelor’s degree in Creative Multimedia. OK, I want to explain my major. Many people will misunderstand that I’m studying media, but I’m not, I’m studying design. Creative multimedia is a new science and technology subject linked to game design and 3D design. You can see our work in electronic devices and in magazines and so on. This major suits me and challenges me, first of all because my divergent mind and brainstorming impressed me so much that the dean of our department was very impressed with me. The first day of a major He memorized the Chinese name of my “mouthful” and challenged me because my painting foundation was a bit poor and the design major had to spend a lot of time and energy on making a work, which was a small number of girls. Many girls learn that half of them choose to switch departments or majors. So, my life now is school, fitness, sitting in front of the computer for 6 hours, occasionally shopping, I love to play. However, I would rather sacrifice the prime time of my life to create a future extraordinary me. In a sentence to sum up my life at home and abroad is, leisurely Guiyang people and hurried Malay students, four years ago I would have met the present In me, must envy now this serious and hard work of me.